A Hurting Parent’s Christmas Wish List

What's on Your List?

Santa'slapAs the mother of a daughter who has wrestled with addictions, self-injury, mental illness, and suicidal tendencies my wants during the holidays are few.

If I could be a child again I’d climb up on Santa’s lap and have a very different kind of wish list to share with him.

Material things mean nothing when one of our children is suffering.

We’ll never be the same. 

What do we really want for Christmas? Nothing money can buy. Your list is probably a lot like mine. It’s more like a prayer.


All I want for Christmas is:

1) A “do-over” for my daughter.

To be able to turn back the clock; erase the trauma and damage that’s been done; wipe away all memory of the terrors she’s experienced; and make her internal and external scars disappear, including the ones on my own heart.

2) My daughter healed completely, on every level – physical, emotional, social, and spiritual; no more addiction, damaged health, mental illness or broken relationships – with others and with her Creator.

3) A spiritual awakening that cannot be quenched or dampened by anything or anyone, lasting for the rest of her life.

4) For her to embrace the dreams her heavenly Father has for her; great purpose for the pain and a compelling reason to live no matter what trials she faces in the future.

5) A protective shield covering to keep her safe from the destructive plans and schemes of the evil one.

6) The peace of Christ in my heart to accept whatever may happen.

7) Invincible faith that believes as long as she’s still breathing there’s still hope.

8) And lastly, strength to persevere, not grow weary or give up.


Too Old For Santa, but . . .

I’m too big and too old to sit on Santa’s lap these days, but through prayer, I can climb up on God’s lap anytime I want. I don’t have to go to the mall or wait in a long line, either. I can bring my heart’s desires to Him whenever I’m ready. He’ll give me His undivided attention and all the time I need, with a heart full of compassion and empathy. I’m never too big or too old for that.

After this comes the hard part – waiting and trusting. Like a child anticipating Christmas morning, it’s hard to wait for what we want so badly.

I think I’ll write out my list and put it in my God Box. Do you have one of those? I’ll tell you more about it in my next blog.

This Bible verse always helps:

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition (our personal requests), with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:6-7).


Dear God, there’s so much I could put on my Christmas wish list. It’s overwhelming. If I wrote them all down I could fill the pages of many books. Please show me how to give my desires to You. Fill me with the courage to wait on Your timing. Help me trust with what I don’t understand. Remind me this week how much You love me and my child – enough to exchange Your glory for a manger to prove it. You came into our world to die so that both of us could really live. This is my true comfort. This is my true joy.  In the name of the Prince of Peace. Amen.


*This is a re-post from the archives.

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6 thoughts on “A Hurting Parent’s Christmas Wish List

  1. Each request on the ‘wish list’ resonates with me! They are exactly what I wish for my daughter. 2017 has been one of the most trying years of my life as a mom, but I have great hope for the new year and expect many good, positive things to be revealed. Thank you for your encouraging posts every week. Wishing you and your family God’s peace and joy and His amazing LOVE for us all.

    • Crista, we’re so sorry for all you’ve been through this past year. May the Lord help you give him all the hopes and dreams you have for your daughter as you trust him with her future in 2018. May he meet you in it with sufficient grace and strength for each day – He will!

    • God bless you and thank you for your comment, Jamie. May you be experiencing the loving comfort of your heavenly Father.