Over the last 11 years I have found that this journey of being the parent of a troubled child is much like running a race, but this race is not a sprint, it’s a marathon! I don’t know about you, but I am running to not only finish, but to win the prize! My goal is to not give up or quit on the way, but to keep my faith to the end, in spite of my daughter’s trials with alcohol, drugs, self-injury, depression, sexual assaults and suicide attempts.
Sometimes I feel like I am hitting the “wall” in this marathon. I want to quit, stop running and just rest! No more pain!I understand that when you run a marathon you have to prepare yourself for hitting this “wall”. This tends to happen around the 20th mile, when you feel like you are “done”. You think you can’t go any further. . . . not another step. You’ve got nothing left. All your reserves are depleted. Your chest is burning, your muscles are searing with pain and you feel like they will surely give out.
In the Boston Marathon this point is called “Heartbreak Hill”. The last 6 miles are a series of hills that steadily climb higher and higher. To go on and finish the race looks impossible. At this point you can’t look too far ahead, it’s too hard. You’ll never make it. You have to fix your eyes on the next step, and the next and the next. With this strategy you can make it! And in this marathon crossing the finish line with your faith intact is winning!!!
What about you? Have you reached your “wall”? Have you reached Heartbreak Hill?
Don’t grow weary or lose heart! When all looks bleak and you feel you can’t go on another step, remember, our hope is in God! Keep taking One Day at a Time, One Moment at a Time. Keep your eyes firmly fixed on the One who conquered Heartbreak Hill. With Him you can conquer yours!
“”Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfector of our faith,
who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame;
and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.”